Dlouho jsem \u017eil v prost\u0159ed\u00ed, kde byla modlitba odpov\u011bd\u00ed na ka\u017ed\u00fd probl\u00e9m.
C\u00edt\u00ed\u0161 vinu? Modli se v\u00edc.
Jsi unaven\u00fd? Modli se intenzivn\u011bji.
Nevid\u00ed\u0161 v\u00fdsledky? P\u0159idej p\u016fst a modli se je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u010casto jsem i j\u00e1 takov\u00e9 v\u00fdzvy d\u00e1val druh\u00fdm. Byl probl\u00e9m? \u0158e\u0161en\u00ed bylo jasn\u00e9 \u2014 modlitba.
Ale zp\u011btn\u011b vid\u00edm, jak \u010dasto to byla jen fr\u00e1ze. Povinn\u00e9 zakl\u00ednadlo, kter\u00e9 m\u011blo uti\u0161it strach nebo a to mo\u017en\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b \u010dast\u011bji netr\u00e1pit se s hled\u00e1n\u00edm opravdov\u00e9ho \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Modlil jsem se up\u0159\u00edmn\u011b, ale jako by telefonem k Bohu, kter\u00fd byl n\u011bkde jinde.
Dnes mi ta p\u0159edstava p\u0159ijde absurdn\u00ed \u2014 volat do nebe, aby n\u011bkdo \u201etam\u201c sly\u0161el.
Byla v tom up\u0159\u00edmnost, ale tak\u00e9 hlubok\u00fd pocit odd\u011blen\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Modlitba byla povinnost.
A bylo samoz\u0159ejm\u00e9<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u017de kdy\u017e vynech\u00e1m,
n\u011bco se pokaz\u00ed.
Zklamu Boha.
Oslab\u00edm v\u00edru.
P\u0159ijdu o vztah.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdy\u017e se to cel\u00e9 zhrout\u00ed<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pak p\u0159i\u0161el moment, kdy jsem prost\u011b p\u0159estal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne ze vzdoru.
Ale proto, \u017ee u\u017e nebylo komu dokazovat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A najednou se uk\u00e1zalo:
B\u016fh nezmizel.
Byl tu i v tichu.
Byl tu, i kdy\u017e jsem ml\u010del.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nebyl na druh\u00e9m konci modlitby.
Byl v\u0161ude.
Byl t\u00edm tichem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Modlitba beze slov<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dnes u\u017e se modlitba ned\u00e1 odd\u011blit od \u017eivota.
Nen\u00ed to v\u00fdkon, nen\u00ed to ritu\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u011bkdy ml\u010d\u00edm.
N\u011bkdy d\u00fdch\u00e1m.
N\u011bkdy jen kouk\u00e1m na stromy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A n\u011bkdy se prost\u011b modlit nechce.
A je to v po\u0159\u00e1dku.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Proto\u017ee nejde o to, jestli se modl\u00edm.
Ale o to, \u017ee u\u017e nikdy nejsem odd\u011blen\u00fd.
\u017de nemus\u00edm nic dokazovat.
\u017de B\u016fh nen\u00ed daleko \u2013 nikdy nebyl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A tak\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdy\u017e se mi nechce modlit,
nem\u00e1m pocit selh\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Proto\u017ee v\u00edm, \u017ee ani v tomhle okam\u017eiku
nejsem mimo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A paradoxn\u011b\u2026
v tomhle klidu p\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed modlitba sama.
Ne jako povinnost.
Ale jako dech.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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